Day 159

I'm pretty sure this is going to be a two-parter. I like the way it's beginning, but there is so much more to this story; the next chapter.

Soldier

It would be years before I understood
The depths and the meaning
Of my choice.
At that moment, I only knew
I was leaving home.
It would be hard.
My life would change.

It would be months before I understood
My new place in the world,
My obligations.
At that moment, I only knew
I would learn things.
I would not be able to leave.
My life was no longer mine.

It would be weeks before I found out
My entire existence before this
Would evaporate.
At that moment, I only knew
I was scared.
I had no choice.
My life was never really my own.

It would be days before I knew
I had made a terrible mistake,
Relinquishing everything.
When that moment came, I knew
I did not belong.
I wanted to leave.
My life was at their mercy.